it smells like smoke
i haven't updated much lately because lately i've been consumed fingers of thought based on what i've said already, over and over again. I've written enough about "the great disconnects". lately i've been finding slight similarities in the writings of authors which i've always admired, and it's exciting. it's wonderful to find a constant current among different oceans, it pulls the universe a bit closer together. When the book of Romans, Dostoevsky, Kierkegaard, CS Lewis and Camus convene at one point in your head, your heart skips a beat..mine does anyway. I've been milling over the idea of the "necessity and validation of the concept of suffering", it's trying at times, but all in all...a great fun time! I've also been thinking about trying to go to a new church, but everyone I drive by looks the same. I know how they will smell when I walk inside, I know that I will be given a program, I know the songs they will sing....and I know I'm being very assuming, but I'm just being honest with you. Knock me down and drag me out! I want to go to Minneapolis, I have friend there that I will call the midwest version of myself, embodied in a softer shell. There are these fires burning in North Carolina and the smoke is drifting into Chesapeake, I can smell it from my bed when I wake up in the morning. Last night, driving home from "night club parody", I could barely see the tops of cranes through the haze. It's such a strong odor when I walk outside, oppressive. We're driving away this week to play some shows and record some more demos in Pennsylvania. We haven't rehearsed since we've finished last, we've been to busy figuring out our plans for the rest of the year and into 2009. They are all based on our own ideas, not anyone else's. We're excommunicating the influence of nitwits and leeches.
I read somewhere recently that loving someone and being in love is not the same. You can be in love with someone and hate them at the same time.
"the paradox of modern existentialism is that it's created new systems of thought in spite of its efforts to persuade us that reason is an insufficient tool for shaping a modern world view"
"man is bound to be guilty; our reasoning judgement can only intensify our pain"
"recognition of suffering is the first step in opening your door to its influence"