Sunday, June 29, 2008

it smells like smoke

i haven't updated much lately because lately i've been consumed fingers of thought based on what i've said already, over and over again. I've written enough about "the great disconnects". lately i've been finding slight similarities in the writings of authors which i've always admired, and it's exciting. it's wonderful to find a constant current among different oceans, it pulls the universe a bit closer together. When the book of Romans, Dostoevsky, Kierkegaard, CS Lewis and Camus convene at one point in your head, your heart skips a beat..mine does anyway. I've been milling over the idea of the "necessity and validation of the concept of suffering", it's trying at times, but all in all...a great fun time! I've also been thinking about trying to go to a new church, but everyone I drive by looks the same. I know how they will smell when I walk inside, I know that I will be given a program, I know the songs they will sing....and I know I'm being very assuming, but I'm just being honest with you. Knock me down and drag me out! I want to go to Minneapolis, I have friend there that I will call the midwest version of myself, embodied in a softer shell. There are these fires burning in North Carolina and the smoke is drifting into Chesapeake, I can smell it from my bed when I wake up in the morning. Last night, driving home from "night club parody", I could barely see the tops of cranes through the haze. It's such a strong odor when I walk outside, oppressive. We're driving away this week to play some shows and record some more demos in Pennsylvania. We haven't rehearsed since we've finished last, we've been to busy figuring out our plans for the rest of the year and into 2009. They are all based on our own ideas, not anyone else's. We're excommunicating the influence of nitwits and leeches.

I read somewhere recently that loving someone and being in love is not the same. You can be in love with someone and hate them at the same time.

"the paradox of modern existentialism is that it's created new systems of thought in spite of its efforts to persuade us that reason is an insufficient tool for shaping a modern world view"

"man is bound to be guilty; our reasoning judgement can only intensify our pain"

"recognition of suffering is the first step in opening your door to its influence"


Blogger Melanie said...

There are fires in Northern CA as well. Some of my family are having a difficult time with them because allergies.

"You can be in love with someone and hate them at the same time."

I sometimes wonder if the idea of being in love is not really love at all. There is an old DC Talk song called love is a verb. I think love can evoke feelings, but real love is something that is done. But I suppose love as being a strong affection for someone or something often involves a love/hate relationship. LOL

There certainly is a lot of truth in this statement!
"man is bound to be guilty; our reasoning judgement can only intensify our pain" and the one that follows as well.

If you check out my blog, I have a good photo of a mutual friend there.

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Anonymous Anonymous said...

I'm not sure what I have to write relates much to your last blog, but it does seem resinate with some of your thoughts, as it did for me the first time I read it.

"I have clesed the door on DOUBT,
I will go by what light I can find,
And hold up my hands and reach them out
To the glimmer of God in the dark, and call-
"I am Thine, though I grope and stumble and fall,
I serve, and Thy service is Kind."

I have closed the door to FEAR.
He has lived with me far too long.
If he were to break forth and reappear,
I should lift my eyes and look at the sky,
And sing aloud, and run lightly by;
He will never follow a song.

I have closed the door on GLOOM.
His house has too narrow a view;
I must seek for my soul a wider room
With windows to open and let in the sun,
And radiant lamps when the day is done,
And breeze of the world blowing through."

Irene McKeehan
Happy Forth Of July we can still celebrate for the gifts our country has provided and provides!


5:04 AM


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