Love is hell....hell yes.

It's funny that sometimes I hear people say, "you're just infatuated with her", or "ehh, it's just an infatuation". What else is there? Infatuation is wonderful and why do I hear it being discredited as some mistaken attraction based on lust. I don't believe that love is fate, I don't believe that you are meant for one person. I don't think love is some kind of utopian emotion that will "find you and take you over" or whatever. Love is something that has to be worked at, constantly maintained. You have to want to love someone, you have control over who you love, you control your love, it doesn't control you. Infatuation is romantic, love is realistic, love is existing. As truly wonderful as love is, I don't think it is found too easily. Infatuation can happen everyday, love is the undesirable result of infatuation. It's so exciting to be infatuated, and once you realize you love someone, it becomes frightening, you become vulnerable. Truly being in love yields a pathetic and gloriously selfless nature. To be at the mercy of whatever someone else desires, or wants, to be dillusioned and naive. Love is necessary and when it's right, there's nothing that can even come close to it. When it goes wrong, it immediately becomes something you'll do whatever you can to forget. It's interesting how it works in those extremes. It's black and white, which makes it pleasantly simple and torturingly simple at the same time. Infatuation makes your heart weak, and love keeps your heart beating. Infatuation makes you act irrational, love makes you think about your actions. Infatuation is love's ignition. I love infatuation, and I'm afraid of love. Although, the scariest thought is to think about never loving anyone. I think everyone is afraid of that, maybe that's why "convenience" is easily mistaken for love. People want it so bad they lie to themselves...now that I think of it--love tows such a tight and deceptive line between disaster and happiness. Lately I've been listening to a lot of Third Eye Blind (I don't like the way Stephen Jenkins sings about sex, it's so "fratboyish") and Tom Petty, old Alkaline Trio and one certain Mellowdrone song. I hope you all had a good thanksgiving, mine was wonderful.